so caught up with you!

my mother...

2009-09-14T15:48:00.009+08:00

alright i think it's been a great long while since i last blogged??

baby gregory's coming to 4mths this 21st.

how fast can that be!! his laughing at me and everyone every single day.

you just can believe how adorable he can be.

dearest one went to shave his head botak.

granddad's calling him commando everyday cause his so big!

here's his latest pic laughing!

school's going to start for me again and yes im going to study real hard this time round.

sometimes when i think back, i realise how much my mummy has done for

me and my bro's. how lucky i feel to have her..

it was mum's encouragement that i could have a family at such a young age.

it's her that i have today.

it's her that brought me luxury.

it's her that i can study without any worries.

it's her that made me and my brother's so fortunate.

i rmbed mummy told me before when i was dating,

since i got your bro's a sports car each i would get for you one too,

but to think again, it's no point a girl driving,

a guy should be driving me, so instead she showered me with

beautiful clothes, bags, shoes and everything a girl needs...

she was there to take care of my kid while i work/study,

she loved all her grandchildren like no grandmother would do.

she sacrifice her sleep, her free time, every thing,

to help me and my bro's in our children.

she gave me and dearest one a roof over our head while we earn money

to buy our house.

while giving her monthly allowance...

she never once threw her temper at any of us no matter

how fed up she could be

how angry she was..

she loved me and my brother's with all her heart.

giving them huge allowance during their studying years,

gave me support and my sole confidant..

how glad am i to have such a mommy..

alot of ppl told me,

your mommy's so nice, so great, so caring, giving you and your bro's everything,

i cant help but say YES! she's a unique one.

all this years, though not being her real daughter,

she never once thought that i was just out to get her money and property...

she was really like those role model mommy...

really count my lucky stars to have such a great mommy!

a surprised gift!

2009-07-24T19:05:00.003+08:00

call me one hell of a lucky girl but YES i AM!!!

guess what,

mommy bought me a $3080 LV BAG!!!!

i almost went crazy over it!!!

so i made a deal with mommy that no she shall not waste money

buying such an expensive bag,

when she said she'll get me a coach one.

seeing shopping around, coach bags are AWFUL!

ytd we went to taka to shop shop see see with baby..

mommy suggested.

i thought alright im not going to buy but would LOVE to see though...

shopping through gucci(having sale btw, very cheap but designs, hmmm not classy enough),

prada(oh love this bag from there!), then was feeding baby at paragon,

saw sooo many ppl carrying branded bags and ALL are LV!

so mommy said let's go to taka,

went to see chanel

(just found out the signature bag for chanel, it's nice but i think more for runway),

then crossed over to LV, shopped there, walked around,

but baby wanted to drink milk!

so went out to feed them while i discuss with mommy...

as promised i said no no canot buy!

anw the LV bags are so cheap!

common ones you see on the streets are only $1000 odd!

that's so affordable and yes with the brand to it why not???!

then we decided to go back to see again,

i thought if $1000 odd i think should be fine buying.

so we went to see again, then came across this 2 bags,

one was the monogram canvas Tivoli GM ($2k plus, cant rmb exact price)

and the other damier canvas Trevi GM (the one i bought)

and most irritating, a stupid china lady came to take the Tivoli GM

while i was comparing!!!!

so i took hers. hehehe!

anw mommy said yes you deserve it for being such a great daughter,

and for loving me sooo extremely much,

she spent $3080 on me!!!!

i could not help smiling at the bag though.

it felt like a dream to me.

yes it is cause hey i would NOT NOT NOT spend $3k on a bag!!

or rather not till im like earning $10k a month then i would indulge in this??

which girl do not love branded things but ohhh baby comes 1st!

mommy had ALWAYS ALWAYS been the greatest to me.

her mother's love for me know no boundaries,

she spends her whole life giving me the best,

being there for me countless of times,

that makes me feel so lost without her!

she's being such a great mother that ANYONE could ever have!

i'll never ever exchange her for ANYTHING in this world!

love you a million and zillion mommy.........

BIG HUGS!

you dont know how much i LOVEEEE you!!!

my 1st post aft giving birth

2009-07-15T16:26:00.002+08:00

finally i've decided to put up my post after delivering!

i just realise if i do not jot all these memories down,

i would not be able to retrieve it back anymore!

so let's begin with before i was going to deliver gregory,

i was suppose to go for my c-section on 26th, aft exams,

BUT

unknowingly baby seem like he wants to come out earlier then expected!

i started having contractions thus pushed the date to 21st instead. =))

so on the 21st, we were all excited going to deliver baby,

mommy, dearest one, daddy....

went in at 11am for admission, expected time to deliver was at 3.30pm

so we waited waited and waited...

at 2.30pm i was counting down thinking, ohhh another hour more!!!

but before i know it, at 2.45pm they came in and told me surgery pushed to 3pm!

so they pushed me in to put my epidural 1st....

everything was moving so fast,

darling was walking here and there, anticipating....

i was SHIVERING inside the OT cause it was SUPER cold!!!!

the epidural was kinda pain though,

the medicine smell was soooo strong that i felt like slping...

during the time i was receiving the epidural darling was waiting outside,

then when finally the medicine took effect, dr jen came in to open me up,

cutting through layers and layers,

and the moment to push baby out, they quickly called dearest in...

and they said, HERE'S THE MOMENT...

(i was going to slp at that moment though)

and my anesthetist gave a push at my tummy and baby came out!!!

CRYING VERY LOUDLY!!!

haha they didnt even have to make him cry....!

by then i did not know what really was happening though,

i was very tired and slpy,

darling was seeing baby while dr stitch me up...

tugging here and there and hearing baby cry...

dearest went down to the nursery with the nurse while they cleaned me up...

pushing back to my ward, dearest came up to see me...

aft going back to ward they brought baby to be breastfed,

and he ALWAYS ALWAYS fall aslp when drinking milk!!!!!

it was a pretty eventful thing and mommy daddy and everyone came to see me.

baby was very small though... 2.845kg when borned.

24th i finally came back home with BABY!!!

another addition to me and andy's life,

someone that we would care for, love, be responsible...

his growing so cute and adorable nowadays...

he knows when we play with him, he would laugh with a chuckle,

he'll stay awake in the aftnns and slp at night,

he was a little terror at the 1st month,

not wanting to slp at night,

waking up every hour,

crying, making alot of noise...

pratically i could not rest,

i was so paranoid, getting angry at the slightest thing,

thank god, mommy was there to help me alot.

taking care a few nights for me,

letting me have enough rest,

being my pillar of support.

thanks mommy! you've been the greatest....

just a little note for all who have been following my blog,

i'll continue our married life journey in a blog which i had long set up...

if you see my links there's this link called

'our married life'

click on that and i'll continue to blog there...

with love....

my 21st

2009-03-21T12:02:00.003+08:00

alright so i finally decided to upload pics of my 21st.

nothing special happened that day though.

dearest was working as usual,

went to eat at Goodwood Park hotel

thus you see e durian puffs.

my darling Diyanah surprised me with a bouquet of white roses and happy bday

helium ballon. *loves*

darling came home with his romantic BIG bouquet of flowers too!

red and white it had on it.

did not take much pics,

cause i look SUPR DUBER horrible at 7mths preggie!

tummy's biggy though. =))

mummy gave me a coach swing bag for my 21st.

ordered from overseas and tell you smth,

it COULD have arrived on my bday but the lady wrote the WRONG WRONG WRONG

unit no!!!

(oh addressed to da sao's hse cause my hse mail always gets lost!)

but who knows,

she wrote the WRONG unit no and i didnt get it!

and it was normal post so not trackable,

till i managed to get the no of the despatch ctr on thur

and then they managed to track it!!

anw i loveeeee the baggy sooooo much!

it's useful when i go out with baby gregory in hand! =)

so baby gregory's coming out on the 26th may,

which is like 2mths and ermmm 5 more days! =)

so exciting ain't it??!

i am though!

soon can wash all his baby clothes.

think in april.

i got pretty much most of the things he need.

or haven i??? hmmmm??

anw if i didnt daddy can get it for him! =)

im too lazy to blog now,

if your wondering how im feeling,

it's nice to be preggie but be prepared to bear PAIN!

yes since in advance pregnancy now,

im having TERRIBLE backaches!

and i really mean TERRIBLE!

and it's not helping when exams are like a month away???

boo! got to study more more more more more!

sms me and encourage me to study pls!!!

shall end here.

guess i wont update till erm baby's born?

hehe alright i wont do that,

i'll try to update soon. =)

what a row of events!

2009-02-14T16:49:00.004+08:00

so my damn stupid idiot lappie crash on me and i duno what to do!!

i've got to send it to the service ctr at commonwealth so i'll do it

when mummy can send me there.

so meantime i'll just use dearest lappie! =))

reason being for updating?

nothing much but a few interesting things happened!

alright today's valentine's day!

happy valentine to all lovers out there!! *loves*

i rmb OUR valentine me and dearest spent last yr tog.

ok i was NOT smth fantastic cause he was working!!

and i thought he did get me any flowers but he did!

oh i still can recall those memories!

and talking abt that whr did his card go to????

boy i'll go and find!!!!

oh did i mention that my baby's name gona be gregory ian neo?

i doubt i did mention here but i've thought of it long time alr since ermmm

before i got preggie me and mummy was always discussing abt

what if one day i got preggie and if it's a boy or girl and blah blah.

gregory was a name thought by mummy, i thought of the name ian,

so it became gregory ian neo and YES mr andy neo agreed!

(it took great efforts to convince him alright!)

so chinese name his gona think abt it

(OF COURSE consulting ME!!! cause i DID discuss with him too!!)

so now im like 5 and a half mths preggie?

yupp by my bday i'll be 6 and a half!!

and my tummy's getting HUMONGOUSLY HUGE and do you know

how breathless a pregnant woman can get and

how hot she can get!!!

seriously sometimes i feel like im SUFFOCATING and im ALWAYS hot!

i take like 3-4 baths sometimes even 5 a day!!!!

with cold cold water!

i've been shopping for baby though i said nope save money,

but his grandma still decided to buy him some really nice clothes!

if not his gona look like some rag and bone child.

oh poor baby!

so i bought him rompers, t-shirts, outing shorts, sleepsuits, blankies...

his grandma went to kiddy palace today (with me) and got him

a matteress, bed guard,

(cause his gona slp on e bed with me and do away with

a baby cot)

ALOT of clothes for him when's born and outing wear, mittens,

very cute socks, milk bottle, 2 rattles, a comb to make him look handsome,

and practically mummy bought him everything i dont have to spend money to buy.

so everything cost his grandma $238!!!

i told mummy it's not needed, i'll buy him e essentials,

but she wanted to and called the shots,

so i had NO say in what to buy!!!

his one lucky child!

so baby gregory, when you grow up,

rmb that it's grandma who bought you everything!!!

you've got to love her dearly!

aft buying all those things, i had to go to spring maternity to get my tights,

lugging all the items, we took a train,

silly me took towards marina bay!

btw we were at toa payoh. so you know how long since i took train!

anw we only took one stop and this very nice uncle(abt 40plus?)

GAVE UP HIS PIORITY SEAT TO ME!!!

what a nice singaporean!

i insisted no but he said nvm it's alright.

at novena got off e wrong train and took e opp side back,

i was thinking boy no nice singaporean this side back,

surprisingly, this philipina lady with her other friends,

gave up her seat to me too!!!

so her male friend felt bad and gave up his seat to her.

ohhhhhh it really made my day!

so singaporeans are not that unkind aft all.

it depends on who you meet with.. *smiles*

poor dearest of mine went out sailing ytd aftnoon and only got back

at 6am this morning.

it's another week more of reservist that he has! =)))

some pictures =)

2009-02-02T16:33:00.005+08:00

i realised it's been a while since i took pictures of myself with dearest!!

so ytd i decided to take some pics and at the same time see my tummy!

it was cedric's 6th bday celebration and all of us went to hougang to have

japanese food =))

took a few pics of my nephews and niece except hazel cause

she was slping =((

dearest going reservist this wed.. *tears*

im going to miss him badly cause since we started out,

we've never been parted for more than a day from each other.

and even so it's tonight you go back and slp, i'll see him e nxt day..

hopefully he gets to come out and i'll pray for his safety out at sea

(hopefully he does not have to sail out)

and take this time to study for my prelims too.

sat i'll be doing my 5mths scan to see baby again,

im wishing baby would faster be born,

each day i feel him moving inside me,

it feels so much like a miracle how a life can be created.

anw here's the pics!

(not very nicely taken though but i'll take more soon!)

dearest and me at his uncle's place

(i think i grew uglier! sighs!)

my tummy at 5mths preggie

pretty breanne
nicholas making a scary face

and cedric (bday boy) with his not so nice look

(that's not his usual look though he says that's how he looks)

a moo moo year

2009-01-29T10:31:00.002+08:00

CNY's coming to and end pretty soon.

just left with a few visitings to do.

this yr's pretty much different for me,

it's my 1st yr giving out ang pows!!!

feel as if i've grown older older older!

oh boy!

mooomooo's yr so much different,

i've got a status of a wife, a daughter, a daughter-in-law and the nxt

a MUMMY!!!

in early june my baby boy's gona be born.

counting down to the day i'll see him and my whole life's gona CHANGE!

i'll be doing everything just for my little boy.

baby would be a moo moo cow baby,

he would be 6mths by the time christmas this yr,

my exam's gona end by the time i go and deliver,

i'll have just passed my 21st bday,

dearest would be a daddy of a handsome baby boy.

boy so much would have changed by end of this yr

and this time nxt yr i would say,

woah in a yr i've became a mummy.

so what's my plans this coming yr?

i'll study hard for the nxt 3 mths till my exams,

anticipate june to quickly come,

do my best for my child,

be a more loving wife,

and i guess that's most impt at the moment?!

and i do not know what's wrong with the bandwith!

unconciousness

2009-01-11T10:52:00.005+08:00

baby boy has been kicking me every single day,

his such and active boy!!

i think he takes aft dearest,

a very mischievous little boy!

so ytd me and mummy went to j8 to get some things,

however when we were at BHG paying for a things,

suddenly i felt really really unwell!!

i told mummy to help me pay for the items

my vision was getting blur

i was shaking,

and the next min when mummy came to my side,

i fainted alr.

poor mummy had a BIG BIG BIG shock of her life!

i really did not know what happened to me.

this giddy spells have been getting more frequent

ever since i got preggie.

thank goodness,

many good samaritians came to mummy's help,

mummy said i was too heavy so she could not hold me,

and luckily 2 guys helped to support me to a chair,

and an auntie kept rubbing the medicated oil on my head before

i could regain conciousness.

dearest got panicky too when mummy called him and told him i fainted,

from bedok i knew he drove like a speedy gonzale

to want to fetch me but mummy drove me home instead.

told daddy and daddy said,

got to see dr jen and get his advice,

mayb i have low blood pressure or low sugar level or mayb just low blood palates.

daddy was just afraid should i faint again without anyone by my side,

i may hit onto something and put me and baby's life at risk.

gosh i wonder what's wrong with me?!

hopefully baby's strong enough to hold out but i think he would,

if he can kick me SOOOO hard every day! =)))

baby's gender!

2009-01-02T13:44:00.002+08:00

went to see my gynae again aft 4 wks

aft the last time i saw him

today had to take blood test!!!

doc drew 3 tubes!

and it hurt like hell!

it's to check for genetic disorder..

today saw baby's gender too.

it was a shape of a 'W'

so it's a baby boy!!

though i wanted a girl badly, but well im glad god's blessing me with

a healthy baby,

that's most impt!

the past few days baby's been kicking me so

mummy alr guessed it was a baby boy!

told at scanning doc was see his progression,

counting his fingers,

but baby not really co-operative,

so cant count both sides of the hands.

scan the brain and it was alright!

no extra fluid builing up.

and baby was TURNING non stop!!!

so it's gona be a mischievous boy!!

im just so anticipating for his arrival and im gona think of baby names!

though i have one in mind but gona consider...

and i got to buy NEW clothes!!!

boos canot take his cousin hazel's clothes cause

she's a baby girl!

so im gona shop at mothercare soon!

soon i'll post scans of baby! soon soon!!

mummy loves baby....!

baby's progress!

2008-12-05T14:04:00.003+08:00

a little update on baby!

today went to scan baby again,

it's to scan baby's neck thickness.

doc was very happy with the results he saw.

there's no excess swelling around the neck

so baby PASSED the first test!!!

it put my mind at ease at least =)))

nxt test would then to test for down syndrome.

but since there's no excessive fluid or abnormalities arnd baby,

im sure baby's gona be JUST FINE!! =))

doc scan my tummy and i saw baby upside down in my tummy this time round!

it was turning and turning around,

doc showed me and dearest,

baby's skeleton fingers,

(very defined alr, no more webbed fingers)

his feet dangling duno here and there,

body getting bigger,

the face of baby!

i saw his eyes and real tiny nose!!!

baby was not so active today,

mayb baby does not have enough space to swim around,

however when i took my weight

i was EXACTLY 50.0kg ONLY!!!!

so i think i REALLY did lose weight...!!

ohh boy poor baby must not be having enough food to eat!

i'll try to eat more and since im in my 2nd trimester now,

doc say appetite would get better.

let's pray so!

so feed me with food ok???!!

i'll promise to eat!

thats pretty much what i saw today of baby,

there's a small bump coming up alr,

doc noticed it too.

and im just contented with what im seeing of baby now! =)

back then...

2008-12-01T11:57:00.003+08:00

it's always funny when you know that ppl are reading your blog and

they are talking about you.

yes mel we'll meet up for lunch when you start sch

and yes i know baby would be healthy

and NO im not skinny or skinner then before!

it's just i could not eat but now,

IM ALWAYS HUNGRY!!!

you wont believe it when i ate dinner at 6pm ytd,

at 10pm i was hungry but not really very,

so shared maggi with dearest at abt 11

and and and at 1am I WAS HUNGRY AGAIN!!!!

oh boy i can see myself growing fat!!!!
and come to think of it i think think think it's gona be a baby boy!!

because i thought i always feel baby swimming and pushing here and there

in my tummy and i thought i felt baby's heartbeat.

and i SERIOUSLY am NOT kidding!!

cause i know it's not a hungry feeling.

anw im going for scan this coming fri again.

i wonder what would i discover this time round!

my life's getting pretty interesting though.

and i went to see prams, milk bottles, diapers and everything!!

(im waiting for more discount then dearest and me can buy that pram we saw!

it's orange in colour though, but pretty swt!)

i've come to a conclusion even if it's a boy,

oh well i'll just try harder to have a girl the nxt time round =)

before i forget dearest wrote this really nice poem and read it out to me

on our wedding day

so here it goes:

Exceptional Love(title)

we share together this love,

today shall be the one of the most beautiful day of our lives,

till the end shall our love survive.

thank you for the love that you have showered me,

for i shall love you endlessly.

darling today we stand together as husband and wife,

our love ones and friends as our witness.

today my love,

you are so beautiful,

for,

you are the angel that is so wonderful.

our age difference never stop us from falling in love,

for it's true that we shall love.

let this be our best memories,

for ages to come with be our best summary.

childrens will be the fruits of our love and commitments,

yeards that we will spend will be memories in our moments.

i love you darling samantha.

and of course very silly me,

his this words made me cry and i was crying THROUGHTOUT

my speech of thank you!

how touching can that get and of course i cried until i looked TERRIBLE!!!

anw im just looking forward to the video and our baby's arrival! =)

baby's growing!

2008-11-26T17:20:00.006+08:00

alright i'll blog a little since i've not been blogging much.

went to see baby again on 14th nov

(oh so long ago and nxt fri im see baby again!)

anw doc said nxt appt is crucial cause it determines the thickness of baby's neck

da sao told me it's to test if baby has down syndrome.

ok i know im being stupid here but as a mummy to be,

there's this fear that i have which OF COURSE dearest cant feel it!

mayb when your are a mummy then you would understand what im saying!

i guess i've been a weak little girl from young,

had op before,

always full of sickness so yeah i fear im not in tip top condition

but YES i'll cast all those NONSENSE away and NOT even think of it!

baby's gona b a healthy one and and and it'll have

my eyes, my smile, my gentleness(if a girl), my sweetness,

NOT my laziness!

dearest's steadfastness, hardworkingness...

im moving to my 3rd month pretty soon

WHICH IS A GOOD NEWS!

and thats because the medicine i've been taking have been making me vomit alot!

so i've stopped today and im PERFECTLY fine!

not to forget,

when i saw baby at last scan baby looks really cute!!

baby was lying on the back, i saw baby's hands and legs, the head, body, nose,

and baby was kicking SOOOOOO actively!

the hands and legs were like flopping non stop and when i breathed,

baby bumped up and came down!

oh boy that image just keep replaying inside my memory

and i know baby's like on 3.14cm then!

but now i think baby's grown ermmmm twice the size??!!

(should be!)

alright i'll post pics of my scan when i can!

i'll find a way to scan my pictures and post it up soon!! =)

im feeling bad!

2008-11-12T13:42:00.002+08:00

i've gotten my wedding pics and since there are like millions of them
i have to upload to facebook!

so check it out there is you wana see alright...

anw i only uploaded really pretty ones!

e previous night i vomitted so badly.

e nxt day i vomitted again

so i went to see a GP

gosh baby does not allow me to eat anything!

and i feel so weak i only want to slp and slp!!

gona see baby again this coming fri.

mayb i can see e gender???

just hope baby's growing healthy!

i made a baby book so when baby grows up,

baby can always look at what mummy and daddy did for baby!

alright shall update soon

and add pictures to blog! =))

to let you know..

2008-10-31T13:02:00.002+08:00

it's been a while since i blogged.

im 8wks preggie now.

which is pretty quick!!!

my wedding's finally over,

i know all good things have to come to an end,

but it's too quick but im glad i had my video!!!

hopefully i get it soon.

oh when i went to see dr at 7wks i heard baby's heartbeat!!!

ohhh my it's just so adorable.

darling heard it and was like going 'yes yes i can hear it'

it just so fantastic how a small embryo can grow into a child.

during our wedding, hipcups here and there,

i was bleeding slightly because i barely rested.

but gladly im fine by the nxt day.

my two days stay at the hotel was spent slping and

eating at a high class restaurant for breakfast.

and i'll update soon when i get the pics plus video.

i have a MILLION things to say!!

a bundle of joy!

2008-10-13T16:36:00.003+08:00

alright since mummy daddy, pratically family ppl know i can say

samantha is gona be a mummy nxt june!

today went to dr to confirm pregnancy but only wanted to do so nxt sat

could not wait cause i had a slight faintish bleeding which is NOT NOT NOT

a good sigh at all!

got so upset but i went alone, dearest dropped and picked me up.

dr say just want me to rest a plentiful and minimise movement

so now im like slow like a tortoise,

dr gave me a REAL painful jab and medication to stable the pregnancy now

and to go back for chck up again,

i got to really take care if not im going to lose this baby

i know if it's meant to be it would be

so im just going to rest and hope it stays strong.

it must have been e weeks whr i walked like a speedo,

carried some heavy things

thus baby must be complaining,

'oh mummy and daddy pls stop disturbing me because im trying hard to grow myslf

onto you!'

pls pray the baby grows strong and e bleeding would stop

it has now cause it's not even alot but just hope by nxt mon

i can hear baby's heartbeat!

now daddy congratulated me,

mummy almost cried when she know im preggie,

ma was happy(i think but mayb smth i didnt like to hear)
darling all so excited and letting me do what i wana do! =)

and we are happy abt smth! =)

2008-10-03T13:24:00.002+08:00

i've finally found the time to update my blog again

my wedding pics are up!

i know you girls who are reading are all so excited over it!

thnks thnks i know i look very pretty!

nxt time would be YOUR turn! =)
wedding big day would be 23 more days??(i think)

really excited about it but i think now we have something else more excited about!

i'll tell soon what it is about we are all getting so elated abt! =)

ohhh today my er sao's gona give birth!!!

cant wait to see e baby too =)

but looks like i got to wait till baby's 1st mth

anw in e mean time i just gona rest rest rest =)))))

our wedding pics!

2008-09-27T11:23:00.015+08:00

it's a month away!

2008-09-26T10:26:00.002+08:00

im been away since like mon?

it was a pre honeymoon for me and dearest except there were like

his colleagues and their spouse there.

yeah we drove up to m'sia legends golf resort for some retreat(training for them) and leisure

and it SURE WAS FUN!

we went horse riding, out of the place to eat very very yummy food,

a form of reflection for me and many many more.

first day we date at this restaurant call JIM MAN LOU and the food was SURPRISINGLY good!
fish,chicken,kangkong,deer meat, cereal prawns,cant rmb what else...

went to resort to check in and we went HORSE RIDING aft that!!

hahah i SAT on top of a horse and walked like 1hr in e jungle!!!

my butt hurt like hell then aft it!

and it seriously was FRIGHTENING riding on top of a very HIGH up horse!
so aft that we went to eat(cant rmb whr)

came back chatted,they drank and basically relaxed.

second day dearest went golfing for like ermmm 6hrs??!!! so i was so bored!

but his friends and me sat there and chatted chatted and chatted.

learnt alot of things from them about marriage and all.

real fruitful! =)

training session for them. wont go into details but i think i impressed his friends =)))

oh and i think we went back to eat that JIM MAN LOU again for dinner cause i was craving for it!
third day training for them in e mrning again, stayed awhile but went to slp aft that,

went for massage when they ended and dearest went GOLFING AGAIN!!

but it's ok, when i ended my massage, showered and pretty soon he came back. =)

this time i was quite sick of JIM MAN LOU alr so we just drove around and had a very

UNEXPECTED finding.

we found this seafood restaurant at some place which served EXTREMELY nice food!

we ate salted veg soup(my craving again!), kangkong(2plates), 2 different types of chicken

(thai style and sweet and sour) and and the best part was the CRABS!!!

we had like 2chilli crab, 2black pepper and we thought to order another one so we had

1 more salted egg crab!! hahah!! so happy!

last day packed and packed our HEAPS of clothes!

we left and half way decided to go to this waterfall,

went in for a dip and the water was DAMN EXTREMELY cold like ice water!

but it was really a experience!

the current of the water was also very strong and and and they did alot of funny things

and we girls were laughing and laughing!

so aft that we drove to JB to have our massage again,

my it was good! and SO CHEAP TOO!! 1and a half hr sgd about $44 only!!!!
oh and it's full body!

and the lady cracked all my bones and it felt damn gd!

so we went to have seafood for dinner again!

we ate crabs again(2chilli and 2 black pepper), prawns, veggie, chicken....

and now i feel SO FAT FAT FAT!

ohhh my and wedding is like 1months time! counting from today!!

it's alr the 26th of sept!!!

my my my my my there's suddenly SO many things to do at the moment!!

dear's got to paint his house,

we got to send out our invitation cards soon,

and the list just GOES ON AND ON AND ON!!!

alright i shall end here now.

i'll upload the pics when i get it! plus videos and everything

in e meantime im gona count the days to my wedding! =)

over the moon i am!

2008-09-19T15:00:00.003+08:00

ok i know i just blogged on the 15th so i was comtemplating should i blog again

but since im like so bloody bored at home i should just update some things

ytd results for my repeat subj ISB came out

3 cheers for samantha cause she got a B! *claps*

ok i know you must be thinking im kidding you but NO im not!
i was surprise myslf too how i manage to get that

anw im glad to move on with UOL =)
mon i would be away in m'sia with dearest and his team.

for some retreat but i think is seems more like a leisure! hahah!!

at least now i can enjoy my short trup and not worry abt it

and i can also do my bazaar in oct at SIM! ohhh so excited!!
mel thnks for promoting my online shop!

i still like bazaar and selling clothings to the girls.

so fun and this time i got a gd fren to do with me!
for that 3whole days!!

so if your miss me can come and look for me at SIM HQ ok??

many friends make me HAPPY!
the more i think of the bazaar e more happy i am

only that it's like 3days before my wedding!!

oh i forgot to state it's on e 22th till 24th oct

and 26th's my wedding!!!!

anw im still doing it!

i cant leave it stagnant esp when UOL JUST STARTED LESSONS!!

and RMIT is having exams!!!

how can i miss it when im missing nxt mon's one!!!

where that one has a fashion show!

so im still gona sooooo do it!

enough of the bazaar for nw,

tmr i can see our edited pic for our photoshoot so i hope i turns out nice!

pretty pretty samantha and handsome andy. =)
alright im gona go back to watching show since im so totally bored!

and i wana watch mama mia!

hopefully darling's free tonight!! =)

*im gona pray and hint hint to him!*

im keeping my promise to that vow we made

2008-09-15T11:11:00.005+08:00

ytd i finally had a chance to take pictures of e NEW clothes i brought in!
mummy had time to help me take since dearest is SOOOO busy with his wrk!

i had fun taking with mummy though!

hehe she took for me quite a few sexy shots!

i think she makes a SUPER gd photographer!
i've yet to upload to my blog so give me till wed ok??!!

i've got to go sch ltr so hopefully at night i can upload them one by one!
so below are my sexy shots! =)
if you would like some of the clothes it would be posted in my blogshop

so check it out by wed ok!! =)

http://www.newyork2tokyo.blogspot.com

ytd night we went to ikea to buy all e furniture for our wedding
so nice choosing all our furnitures
if we have our new house it's going to be EVEN more things to buy!!!
wheee cant wait for that day but im satisfied with what i have now. =)
so ytd night we had a bit of unhappiness,
i cried and cried non stop,
initially i thought dearest didnt bother even if i did cry,
i was just not a gd wife,
i dont know whr's going wrng,
what's he thinking about,
was the marriage a right thing to start with,
till he asked me what was it i want, what's with e crying,
and i told him i just wanted him to love me,
then did i realise actually ALL along he had loved me,
everything was for my sake,
his mind was always thinking about me when he does EACH and every SINGLE thing.
it was me who thought about the bad things about him,
it was me who thought mayb he didnt love me enough,
or i've yet to get his whole heart,
mayb i was just not a gd enough wife,
what was i suppose to do,
thats when he told me i'm wrong,
a BIG BIG BIG wrong mistake im making!
he loved me with all his heart,
sometimes i ask him if im a gd wife,
at times i am, but sometimes i fail to understand him
thats why he feels so hard to explain his feelings to me,
cause i thought i understood but in actual fact i did not,
cause i chose to believe otherwise,
he knows his directions whr his going,
cause he making it the best for me and him, our family, our future,
i feel like such a big idiot,
i love him so much, extremely alot,
but we misunderstood each other!
we're going to make it better,
or rather I AM going to change to make this better.
i really AM!
so im changing, would god bless us with a child???
im praying....
i love you with all my heart my dearest baby. *hugs*

it's a boring day!

2008-09-11T10:54:00.002+08:00

i feel so much better, much better,
because i can see you trying to make this better.
another week's going to pass again, so our wedding's getting nearer and nearer,
rather exciting though!
cant wait to put on that extremely beautiful long white gown,
which i always thought when would i get a chance to wear it.
so im extremely bored at home now cause i DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO!
so would someone date me out to go shop, eat, play,
and i feel so stuck not knowing what to do!!!
im still thinking thinking thinking....

boos!

2008-09-05T15:40:00.003+08:00

samantha is feeling down, very very down
i just want to serenate in your arms and feel that love that you can give me,

i need your encouragement and strength,

i want your words of comfort,

i want to have a confidant, a pillar of strength.

why do you aways misinterpret my words and meaning?

why do you feel that im killing you with my words?

why do you feel that im just finding trouble with you.

am i such a wife in your eyes?

is this what you call a marriage?

i hate to read those words over and over again.

happy ONE year!!!

2008-09-01T23:20:00.002+08:00

oh i sooooooooo dont wana miss the chance to say

happy 1yr anniversary to me!!!
it's me and my dear husband's 1st yr being tog since we got together as bf/gf!
soooo excited about it!

it's been pretty long since i last had such a long r/s and esp when

it's DEFINATELY gona be a lifetime!

anw had ISB exam today, argh hope i pass!

i PASSED my MATHS!!! soooo happy!

im ONE step closer to taking UOL!

and im making my efforts to do well!!

so i shall blog more tmr!

=) and im bored cause im on sept hols!

can you believe it?!

UOL HAS sept hols!!!! hahaha!

i just cnt help smiling!! =)

baby, i'll hold you tonight

2008-08-29T20:12:00.003+08:00

days have been pretty boring for me besides having classes

studying for my so i dont like exam!

im getting real tired this few days too.

mayb i lack some exercising but im just too lazy to get up at 645am to run with my dearest!
dearest new car came ermmm last wk i tnk or was it the previous?

anw it's nice i like!

soo family!!

his frens said i could slowly fill up the 5seats left in e car after excluding me and him.

so i said nope e most i tnk i would have 3 kiddies!

ohhh we're praying a baby would unexpectedly bump into our life this month. =)

i would be happiest of all!

*praying praying*

ohhh im setting up a bazaar stall in SIM on 6sept!

so if your happening to pop by there do come and say HI to me! =)

im selling my clothes(brand new) and hand made earrings, necklaces, and hair accessories.

i'll love you more everyday

2008-08-22T16:38:00.002+08:00

i've set up another website specially to blog about our married life.

dearest specially requested so that we can put up pics, blog about everything

and frens can all go and take a look at how we have progressed.

there we can blog if im pregnant,

scans and how big in size i would grow,

things to laugh about,

things to remember when i look back at the entries,

and when we're 60's and the children are big,

we can always recollect those moments before we forget it.

i've also changed my blog song, which i really love alot.

just a random music my lecturer was playing once in class.

it's just so smoothing and makes me feel into my heart.

i always love to bring myself to how i've come to this start of a different life

all woman would have to go through.

at age 20, i cant believe it myself,

the paths i've decided to choose,

the way i want things to be,

foreseeing what would the future be,

when's our children going to bump into our lifes,

what's 5years from now?

i asked myself that when i was 18,

the nxt guy who's my bf would be the guy i would marry.

i remember going to SIM,

made new friends, went to work in ERA for boss,

sat at the back corner,

chancing upon mr andy,

eye exchanging but didnt wana approach,

he looking at me each time he walks pass,

finding excuses to just pass my way,

deepest memory is where after dinner coming back to office,

he would stand just outside his door,

not going in, keys in the lock, waiting to push the door to go in,

but his head it turned towards my direction,

and im facing him with my back

because im looking at him from the reflections on the window.

i wished at that moment we said something.

one fine day, something blew into him,

walking pass me he offered the fisherman sweets he had in his hands,

"would you like some?"

thats where we spoke.

till he stood at my cubicle, introducing himself to me,

for that moment i felt the people in front of me didnt exist and i only saw him!
it's amazing how i felt that way

it's been a while since i last felt it, and it was him which gave me that feeling

assuring me his REALLY the one.

at that time when he was too caught up with his things to bother about my existence

it shattered my heart into a million pieces.

i felt i brought myself back to that feeling i hate so much!

it was a torturous month for me.

i just knew i partied like there was no tomorrow,

i just wanted to get out of that pain that was killing me inside,

till he came and pick me up in his arms again.

starting all our lifes together.

what he said he made it true,

from friends to girlfriend,

girlfriend to wife

thats how our love should grow.

and it did. <3

with all that love you gave

2008-08-18T18:57:00.006+08:00

oh my shy shy nephew!

see how shy he is before he warms up to PLAY!
my bestie diyanah! loves!

thnks frens for turning up
(though some late huh!!)

now you can see e smile on nephew's face!
we were looking at smth,

i do not know what??!
diyanah, bride & groom
one nice pic with my sis in law
huggies
four beauties
in my room

changing out of my gown

and we all had fun playing poppers!!

so did dearest's frens

it fell into the food!!

got all the pics from my darling girl so finally can upload it up.

i realise aft marrying life's been so different for me,

it's just like you know there would definately be someone waiting for you,

someone to lean on and cry on when you are down,

someone to give you encouragement,

someone to bully and make fun of,

someone to complete the puzzle in you life.

even now we think so alike!

it's either before i ask or after he ask it's what each of us are thinking abt!

ohhhhh

cant help but keep feeling bliss on how i met you

and married to you.

i believe even if one day we have alot of arguements over our children

we would grow old together

hand in hands.

you have loved me with every single bit of ur heart,

sheltered me from the stormy weathers,

and let me know im ur most special one. =)

lawfully yours!

2008-08-15T10:58:00.010+08:00

i finally got to get my pics for my ROM!
yeah which means im trying to upload for VERY long time!!

so here are the pics!

ohhh video would upload the nxt round. =)

here we start!

the very nice swing that we sat on to exchange vows

e tent i wanted to have and dearest did e balloons with our names =)
wine glasses
ribbon tied on the gates
poppers to play with!

(my frens i knew your had fun!)
wine for all
flowers done by dearest, balloons lined the way
getting all prepared
1st pic we took tog
(aft coming back from make up)
my most beloved mummy n daddy <3> dearest parent's

(my in laws)
2nd pic of us again
(i love this pic though, how you held me in ur arms)
our wedding bands
lilies and champagne roses
thats cedric!
(my adorable newphew)
im preparing and dearest was POSING!!
im always smiling
time to exchange promises
"do you take her to be your lawful wife?"

and now it's MY turn!
and aft exchanging vows,
you finally wore the ring on my fingers
doing the same for you
and do sign that you would honour your words
(no turning back HUH!!)

i know promise i would do
pa's(father in law) turn as witness

daddy you too
our very nice JP
and he was telling us what's impt of a marriage
before pronouncing us husband n wife

and so FINALLY!
mr and mrs andy neo!
congratulating us
our promise of eternity

is at last in our hands!
not forgetting kissing ur wife
so we thank mr chia ti yu
(our JP) with a pic
both daddys
ma (mother in law) was shedding tears of joy,

baby julius congratulating me too!
but i doubt he knew what was happening! haha

he was wondering what's he doing at a different place
dearest and buddy
we were enjoying our catered food from jack's place

AND, she was caught eating!
(if you dont know her she's my sis in law)

this pictures reminded me of that day which we started our lives together
sometimes,
the memory is always in your mind,
but you would tend to forget it,
thus this pictures and video's remind you once again of what you've been perserving
thats whr you would realise how much you had loved that person.
i remembered the time where we were trying apply for our rom date,
below 21 thus parental consent,
however they were also my adopted parents,
so they wanted documents which was so long ago
we had no way to retrieve it back,
so in e end it was a big hassle and we manage to do it.
time really flew passed,
and we're married for coming a month.
we're moving on to our wedding in oct.
ohhh food tasting was ytd night,
it was very nice food,
except for certain dishes which i dont tnk it's good,
but well, it's ok!
so we have 2 months more to prepare!
it's gona be poooof,
our wedding day!

without your smile, i cant get to sleep

2008-08-12T10:19:00.003+08:00
i found out that if you kept thinking that you are unhappy
and starts pin pointing on every things been done to you,
and feel unhappy about it,
you would really be though the other person may be trying hard to please you.
at times it's just you feeling unhappy abt it
cause you just want the WHOLE world to give in to you.
but in actual fact,
your just making your ownself miserable
cause he just love you and didnt mean to make you sad.

i know how much i loved my hubby!

2008-08-08T14:29:00.005+08:00
it's been a while since i last blogged.
the last i remembered was i know i was trying to promote my blog.
life's past a couple of days for me as mrs neo
pretty much adapting to it though.
nothing much of a difference
mayb just things like,
im a married woman now,
i've got to grow up,
i've got to study even HARDER,
i'v got to be a good wife,
i've got to be a good mother,
i've got to prepare myslf for alot of things to come.
is that all just the difference?
im not regretting my life being married,
i've got to know that i cant be that little girl
which i can hide behind the closed doors when im unhappy.
i've got to plan my future and get that degree!
i've got to fight on when i thought mayb i cant.

i'm in class now,
thought there was class,
came to sch diligiently(this time)
to study,
but im feeling down,
im bored,
i wondering what should i do.
i felt im not getting enough love,
but i realise i should really really grow up!
and now im thinking what should i do for my blog??
im gona look for bazaars!!
and so im gona STUDY!
ohhh happy bday singapore!
it's her bday! =)
i shall take pics tmr!

do check this out!!

2008-07-31T17:30:00.004+08:00

i've set up a online shop for you special girls!
so do support me at
www.newyork2tokyo.blogspot.com
new dresses have been brought in JUST FOR YOUR!
do check it out!!
with love!

a promise of eternity

2008-07-31T12:27:00.002+08:00

my vow to you which i would promise to fulfil.
time really flew past from the time i started sch in SIM,
to wrking in ERA(thru mel)
to knowing my darling.
and now we are happily married(at least before e kids come =))
i cant wait to get e pic and video for our rom.
ohhh it's gona take a LONG LONG while!!
so pls do wait when i have to wait to get it too!
i promise promise promise to upload it!

so here's what i said:
I, Koh Joo Choo Samantha Anne , take you, Neo Tiong Hong,
to be my lawful husband,
knowing in my heart that you will be a faithful friend,
and a loving companion.
On this special day,
in the presence of our family and our friends as witnesses,
I give to you my sacred vow that
I will always be with you and support you,
in times of sickness and in times of health,
in times of joy and in times of sorrow.
I promise to love you completely,
to console and comfort you during difficult times,
to laugh with you and to grieve with you,t
o share with you life's simplest but most enduring pleasures,
to be truthful and honest with you,
and to cherish you,
for as long as we both shall live.
With this ring as a token,
I now marry you.

a day passed...

2008-07-27T09:12:00.002+08:00

it's the 27th july
my rom just ended ytd night.
it was certainly a GREAT big success!
thnks for all my dearest who came to attend!
di darling, jackie, tina, sichun and of course trix!
(i know your had mre fun playing with all e babies and kiddies!)
your guys have been great to spend ur precious night with ME!
emotions raising through, heartbeats pounding,
tears in each other's eyes,
thats because the love to start a married life together was beginning.
oh plus pressies for you guys.
im sooooooooooo touched!
pics and videos would be uploaded WHEN I GET IT!!!
so tina i know you reading my blog so SEE IT!!!!
SEND ME E PICS AND POST IT IN YOUR BLOG TOO!!!!
till then,
i love you darling dear,
im so glad to be yours and yours only =)

in a moment's time

2008-07-25T13:36:00.005+08:00

it's the 25th of july today which means i have ONE more day till ROM!
simply cant help believing how true this is gona be.
i feel like a cinderella having her dreams come true.
mayb except for things like im not poor, do not wear ragged clothings..
so yeah i cant wait for tmr mrning to come!
it's gona be a buuuuuusy day to come! =)
i'll upload pics and videos if i can!! =)

oh i forgot to add it's e last time i call him my BOYFRIEND! =)

im taking you away with me!

2008-07-18T16:00:00.002+08:00

ehhh i've been trying to count the no of days to my rom??
then i realised that act it's 9 more days!!!
not 8!
ohhh the count dwn forgot it was a leap year!
hohhohoh!
anw it's like nxt sat and today's fri!!
soooo exciting!!
darling got to find out abt our honeymoon which a company is offering.
we've been wanting to go on a mediterranean cruise and im going sooo crazy over it!!!
it's schedule is to barcelona, from there we board the cruise ship and
move to Malta(beautiful beach),
Naples/Pompeli,
Rome,
Florence/Pisa
Nice then
back to barcelona for a day (im gona extend my trip!!!)
so i get to go to alot of european ctry at one time!
how nice can that get esp since it may b a looong way more before i can tour again
though darling has been there before but it's ok!
it's gona b my 1st time there with him too
so it's something to rmb abt!!!(better be!)
and so we are still gona scout around for better deals.
(mayb like really tour the WHOLE of europe???)
ok thats insanity but im just saying MAYBE??
anw thats a long way more,
let's think what else do i have to do for my ROM???
ohhh i tnk i can get some of my photoshoot pics which we secretly took soon!!
hopefully i can upload it quickly..
for now i'll just do nothing.. =)

you swept me up in your horse carriage

2008-07-16T16:31:00.003+08:00

i've been quite faithfully updating my blog soooo recently!
i really wonder why..
guess im just way way way tooo excited over my ROM
especially WHEN,
darling told me today there is this mediterranean cruise which we can go for honeymoon!!
im soooo crazy over it though it's not been confirmed what it's gona be like..
i know we would be going to places like italy, spain, malta(daddy says it's a very nice place)
and many many many more places...
we are gona stay a few more days longer then e planned trip,
blah blah blah.
cant wait for it to be ALL confirmed!
ROM's 10 more days to go!
this weekend's gona be a SUPER hectic week when we got to go and buy what ever's not here
nxt fri my red gazebo tent would be pitched!
yiipees i cant wait for nxt week to arrive like the spped of lightning!

that guy of mine!

2008-07-15T19:49:00.002+08:00

i've CHANGED my blog skin again
AND AND AND
it's ALL by myself!!!
im so proud of that!
i so dont wana post smth so shift my previous post down
boos!
but the time we spent taking our wedding photographs would deeply be rooted in my memory
so we've gone through the 10th month tog on 1st july
how time really flew passed!!
rom's nxt sat!!
i CAN'T even believe that myslf!
gosh im getting married and it's coming soon..
definately im excited abt it,
but i rmbed just 4th day of chi new year,
we were planning,
booked the rom date and everything
and now,
it's nxt wk im his lawful wife..
even way back before we started our r/s
to me wondering would he really be my husband which i really wished
he was when our eyes 1st crossed.
when he told me what abt the future that we were looking towards,
i thought then he had forgotten about his words to me before,
that he made my heart melt for him all over again.
its just so much moments he gave to me,
im not willing to or not wanting to give up,
we had bad moments
but firmly he can tell me,
yes darling i love you still.
it's just you having the qualities that makes the perfect wife
im marrying you for the reason that i love you so..
<3

something for me to bear in mind:
a woman's generosity can turn a man into a new leaf
i've to give my outer most love to him
and to serenate him with all that he never had...

photoshoot!

2008-07-10T11:21:00.009+08:00

oh now im gona post my photoshoot pics!
im not gona be lazy like how i didnt post my bali photograhs...
HEHE! here's e pics!!

wedding shoes
our wedding bands
newly manicured french nails
early morning waiting for cab
aft my make up!

dearest turn!!! hahah!ohhhh e make up artist has soooooooo much make up!

wearing my wedding gown and doing my hair

1st hair style's DONE!
dear and me!!

tiara and necklace
with veil =)

2nd hair style with 2nd gown
done with hair style, thats my 2nd gown!

head dress! so extravagant!

3rd hair stlye! wayyyy up high!!
ohhh cant see my blue gown!

4th hair stlye and my FAVOURITE lime green evening gown!

very sweet green head dress
last hair style! going out for shooting =)

with a more simple veil on too! :D

im done with e pics!
it's just not all up front!
thats my make up artist and she's real good!!
cant wait for my actual day
im all smiles and glees!!
gona take from her pics she took of me n dearest! =)

im feeling HAPPY!

2008-07-08T20:47:00.001+08:00

my photoshoots tmr and im EXCITED!!!!!
ohhh cant wait to wear the pretty gowns and take silly pics!!!
leaving house early!
boos!!
did my pretty nails today with my tina's company!
thanks girl!!
pic uploading SOOON!!! =)

the sun coming up in ur eyes..

2008-07-02T13:45:00.003+08:00

so long since i last updated my blog.
been busy with my stuff.
dont really know what have i been doing too!!!
hahah anw results not been so good so i GOTTA WRK HARDER!!!
dearest studying again!
wishing him all the best!!
photoshoot's coming coming coming!!!
ehhh it's in fact nxt coming wed!!
ohhhhh I CANT WAIT FOR IT!!!
and and and I'VE NOT TONED UP!!!
ohhh wells photoshop can do the job!
heheh!
so bored staying home.
booos i cant wait for e rom!
it's coming ermmmm how many days???
tralalalala im thinking thinking thinking what should i do????
hmmmmms...

i want to be that...

2008-06-20T11:59:00.002+08:00

been some time since i last blogged.
many happenings.
went to bali.
great place.
too troublesome to upload all e pics so i would when
ermmmm i feel like it??? hehhe!
sigh having supp papers.
today's e last one.
and im PRAYING i do pass!!!
and i've booked my classes for degree!
and im gona make it
im gona study hard and get a 2nd upper class honours!
HOPEFULLY!

my rom's nearing
im anticipating it
but there is just this thing inside of me
that wants to scream out loud
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHA
in this moment i know im by myself.

tu amor means i love you

2008-05-22T01:34:00.003+08:00

just cant get to slp now so gona try to tire out my eyes,
checked results for CA,
got B for all except econs a D+.
looks like i gotta work harder to econs during exams!!!
and hopefully i can rmb all e facts and case laws for law!
such a terror!!
we're all mugging hard!

dearest i slping very soundly in his dream land,
im up at e living blogging.
great time to reflect on my life.
it's been a while since i was alone thinking about what the future held.
back then i remembered i always was thinking
what my future really was,
who was that guy whom i would share my life with,
and when i fell in love with my beloved,
i was wondering would we have a chance to share our lives together.
so unexpectedly,
his that fantasy that became reality to me.
each and every moment that is gona happen to me,
im certain that i would want to write it down.
im always having that stupid idea,
what if one day smth happens to me
or what if i cant let e ppl arnd me know how much i've loved them,
or all my stupid thoughts.
*laughs*
oh silly me with those weird ideas!!
he was that moment that i've waited for a lifetime,
that kiss and touch to complete e picture,
at times,
it felt so superficial but when u dig deep into your heart,
e love was just that intense to uproot it off..
does anyone know what im talking about???
why is it that such feelings can never be expressed into words..
oh wells,
i know my heart beats for our future together..

oh yeah!
dearest have finally started to plan for when should a kid come along,
e pros & cons,
and i guess we have come to a conclusion,
and im anticipating for e moment i know im actually
having a kid! hahahaha!!!

the love of a lifetime

2008-05-17T13:13:00.003+08:00

now i know i do have many things to blog but
i seem to have forgotten what i wana say... hmmmms??
exams are COMING!!!!
that sucks!
rom's nearing =)
im getting EXCITED!!!
quite alot of happenings this few weeks,
went to celebrate my nephew n niece's bday earlier in e mth,
went about to see wedding shoes,
searching for e right one,
didnt really see any i like till i FOUND IT! =)
darling's been wrking hard and closing deals,
earning money for me =)
mummy's changing everything in e hse for my ROM,
e kitchen cabinet, curtains, sofa cover...
rom's in like 2mths time???
oh everythings coming!!!!
just cant wait for it.
exams are coming and im gona study.
made another nice fren.
glad to find out who are my nice frens to keep,
the world is moving fast,
and im glad to have a husband to find comfort in
everyday when i get back home.
the time is right for us to live our lifes together. =)
it must have happened unexpectedly
thats why we are together
the guy to last me a whole lifetime through...
with all my heart... loves!

my cute little girl. =)
my wedding shoes. just like a glass slipper :)

his that one!

2008-04-29T19:16:00.003+08:00

and yes i found my justice of peace to solomise my wedding in july!!!!
and i must say his really a nice nice nice JP!
e JP gave me a 3 options which i can choose to do for my wedding
either,
i make my own vows
(which i tnk would be damn sweet!),
use the other options of vows which he gave
(which is also very meaningful and holds a very very strong meaning),
or do it in chinese
(which of course it's not POSSIBLE!)
so then now i gotta tnk of some vows to commit myslf into our marriage...
vows that JP gave me,
In sickness, I will nurse you to health.
In health, I will nurture you.
In sadness, I will bring you joy.
In happiness, I will share it with you.
In poverty, I will make our love rich.
In wealth, our love will not grow poor.
When you need encouragement, it will be from me,
When you need a helping hand, it will be mine.
With this ring as a token, I now marry you.
OR
I vow to always keep my love, as pure as it is today.
In your laughter, and your tears, in your sickness, and your health.
In your comfort, and your fears, in your proverty and your wealth.
I promise to be true to you, I promise to cherish you.
With this ring as a token, I now marry you.
the words meant so much and it really express so much committments
into something which you want to share with your love one for
the many years to come...

i went back to read the moments that we once shared from the time we started out,
it was filled with tears, laughters and all the mixed feelings,
but throughout it all i realise you have been by my side,
each time improving yourself,
and me knowing exactly that you were the one for me.
though i was not certain initially that we would have made it till today,
to share our lives together,
you have surprised me that you are firm that im your exclusive.
so many feelings which i cant express it to words,
you are like making my happiness last for a lifetime.
since the time you knew i've been searching for that one to settle down with.
you've shined your light during my darkest moment,
be my sunshine which made me go crazily insane,
nurture me back to health which i was most weak,
made me think of only you when im lonely,
all the things which you have done for me,
im selfishly wanting more from you my dear...
it's only you that i have on my mind..
always... <3>

e one guy i love =)

2008-04-25T11:49:00.007+08:00

ytd was dearest off day again!
went out to sing kbox with him.
it was realy extremely fun comparing to like e 1st time i sang with him???
there's just no mre embarrassment with us
so even if it sounded awful it was still hilarious!
oh yeah last weekend we collected our wedding band
which i re-made another new set.
real excited that all's coming so soon.
im suddenly feeling rather SCARED!
HAHA!
M hotel called too and said the contract was ready,
photoshoot's coming,
and our rom's in 92 days???!!
OMG! thats real quick!!!!
and im anticipating for that moment! =)

wed was suppose to go for bridging,
didnt really have e mood to,
chatted with amanda and we both almst cried.
im sry amanda if i made you emo too! haha
she told me things which i didnt know how to place it into words,
it's been there all this while
and i finally found how to put it.

came back, met dearest at my hse,
talked to him only at night.
and now i know that,
he would be there to hold my world when it crashes,
not even e last one to accuse me when smth happens,
there to believe, accept, trust me.
not to put me off but to understand me.
i know it would work out.
and we are all looking forward to that day.

i know i still love you so!

2008-04-20T12:46:00.002+08:00

ehhh let's recall what happened this week!
cant really rmb but i know i went shopping with mummy to taka on fri night
mummy got voucher $300 so she spend it ALL on me!
hahahha happy but guilty,
still i bought 4 nicey,sexy lingerie(HEY THERE! no dirty thoughts huh!)
some undergarments for myslf and ooooo
was going back and went daniel yam,
chose for my beautiful mother a nice nice gown
FOR MY WEDDING!
plain but very nice!
just right for her!!! so perfect!
arggh i tnk i only rmb all this the whole week through out!
went sch everyday, bridging classes,
saw e cute guy for amanda,
ate and ate and ate with ernestina in sch,
in between the week
a few arguments with dearest,
thats pretty much all.

when i tnk of more i would update,
and when im not soooooooo lazy! heheh!

update!

2008-04-14T11:21:00.002+08:00

such a long time since i last blogged.
sch's been two weeks, this is e 3rd alr.
lessons been alright.
law's been very interesting!
infor has been SOOOO boring! lecturer also end soooooo early!!!
assignments are due pretty soon and yes im trying to do it! boos!
ytd stayed home to move rooms
my dearest and sweetest mummy and daddy gave up their master bedroom for me and andy.
really very sweet of my lovely parents.
did sooooooo much for us.
appreciate their love for me!!!
all the small things they have done for me.
boos i duno what else to blog alr!

some times i really do wonder how much things would you do for me?
i know you love me,
you wish to spend the rest of your life with me,
but how much i meant to you?
mayb im being more thoughtful then you are,
more appreciative of us mre than you did,
loved you more than you love me?
i just some times really wonder.
would you miss me if im not by ur side anymore?
would you forget me when im not with you for a long time?
am i just someone you do not consider caring abt her feelings
cause you are more knowledgeable than her?
im just wondering wondering wondering.......

love love

2008-03-31T14:43:00.002+08:00

ooo i so dont wana update my blog but i do have too...
i just wana see e post whr he proposed to me!!!
hahah anw results released like 2wks back n it sucked!!!
flung all so retook and yes
I PASSED ALL 3!!!!
great job to me n jason who took e same papers!!! hahahah!!!
stupid us!
today's still on hols so finally have the time to blog.
gown fitting's next sun in e aftnn.
gotta select my gown!!!!
ytd went on a BIG BIG BIG shopping spree!!!
bought 1 dress(kate moss), 1 shorts, 3 basic tees and got mummy a long sleeve shirt
all from topshop!
ALMOST could not get my staff disc la!!!!
but went walking cause dearest came to meet up with me n mummy.
so we walked cause he PROMISED to buy me a wallet!
heheh self budget $1000
(actually i didnt have intention to spend soooooooo much la, e most $500 on a wallet)
so we went to gucci, salvatore ferragamo, dior, lowe, kate spade, all e branded shops la!
anw i quite like e salvatore but still thought see LV thought it was some how like a
pasar malam like that!!!
SOOOOOOOOOOOOO many ppl queueing JUST to go in! (without buying!)
so went in and saw a very nice wallet,
(xinni said it was nice too when we went e previous day)
showed dearest and mummy a few designs,
monogram canvas, monogram multicolore, monogram vernis, damier canvas and epi leather,
but the nicest was still monogram vernis
and yes i bought it.
sinful me,
cost $1010!!!!
plus shopping on my own $247!!!
so i spent a bomb just a single day
went home without complaining when i was made to go home
(cause e both were exhausted)
but i was contented with my shopping!
went to eat, drove to e coffee shop,
drove home and we rested!
oooo about driving,
i drove on e PIE just now!!!
aft mummy went to a school,
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO scary!!!!
and now im bored at home,
was suppose to go with dearest to sign e contract for M hotel(our decided hotel for oct wedding)
but he was busy and i could not meet him,
he called me and ask me if any more things i wana nego,
hehe and i asked for ANOTHER STAY at e hotel!!!
poor guy he agreed! hehe!!!
soooooooooo happy!!!!
waiting for xinni to come, so i can teach her
gona paint my nails with my new OPI colours,
n just rest before SCHOOL TMR!!!!
ooo i forgot to add smth!!!
went for xinni's sch meet e parents,
some thought i was her mother!!!
but some said "wow your er sao very pretty!"
hahah! ok self praising!

i just wanted you to know how much i've loved you
your that sunshine which shined up my day,
e rainbow after the stormy days,
and e one who always stayed by my side..
love that boy of mine. =)

my extremely special 20th bday!

2008-03-14T13:04:00.005+08:00

i seriously really had a great 20th bday celebration!!!!
dearest was working in e mrning and aftnn so did get to see him.
thought we were not going for any celebration.
got ready when he called later.
he DIDNT tell me at all where we were going!!!
just knew it was in town.
so to confused e inquisitive me,
he went round n round n round n round city hall
and FINALLY turned into raffles city, swissotel.
just held me by the hand(still saying we r going to eat at the kopitiam)
and walked to swissotel,
went up to the Jann(french cuisine)
ambience was SPECTACULAR,
everything was just nice!
it fell into place sooooooooo well!
even the music, our waiter,
just name it and it was PERFECT!
dearest was smiling throughout the whole dinner though,
ate, took pics, blew my candle,
dinner ended at 930pm.
made our way to the car,
before we left at e hotel,
dearest was sillyily laughing when i ask him
'let's go back?'
he replied me, 'ok, were you expecting smth else?
e more you want it e more i wont do it!'
so i said 'what????'
'e ring???(he laughed n laughed)'
it was seriously SUPER hilarious!!!
so got into e car,
drove out on our way back,
but e route felt different,
he turned at one junction,
so i asked, 'where are we going?'
he LET OUT HIS LAUGHTER and said
'going towards beach road!!!'
so i silly thought it's true cause i duno city hall roads well.
i just knew he was turning towards the parliment house at pandang.
THEN!!
he stopped and said,
'darling i wana stop the car here!'
i was like 'WHY??(you know it was on like a on-coming road)'
'i wana propose to you!'
and he was laughing none stop!!!!
i was super shocked myslf too!!!!
in the car, in e middle of the road, just too sudden!!!!!
and of course,
dearest flumbered esp when i asked whr we were heading,
he got anxious and nervous.
hahaha!!!!
yes i agreed and we're engaged!
now i asked,
reason for asking in e car at such a catching me by surprise moment???
that's because,
it was also in the car he asked me to b his gf then. =)
6mths, 13days back
he was flumbering too,
asking me to be his gf while he drove,
but this time must wear the ring for me,
so gotta stop e car!!!
so i asked him,
i thought you would have done that in e hotel while we were eating or
brought me to somewhere and propose.
not at e hotel was cause he didnt wana me feel pressure,
besides his car,
was where we started too.
and that was e BEST venue =)
he had kept so tight with his surprises for me,
really catching me by surprise,
and throughout that short journey back home,
we were both smiles, holding hands...
anw since he didnt kneel down to propose,
he had to when we got back home,
so it's kinda just so im happy he knelt down! *evil laughs!!*

AND PICTURES!!!!!!

SURPRISE dessert gift from hotel staff!!!!
(it's a chocolate sphere i ordered, so they cut it n placed a candle!)

the hungry us eating e main course! yums!
i like e transparent cup!!!
and e food was SUPER nice!(dear's pigeon)
my lamb tenderloin(it's really tender!!!)
appetizer's
we were 70floors ABOVE ground!!!

AND THE BIG PROPOSAL!
(act it's jus to take pic but it was not here!!!! hahah)

bday cake cutting

my loving parents!

i went back to time when we first met,
how you've changed just for me,
how much you've loved me now.
e way you asked me to b ur gf,
e way you proposed to me,
e strong love you had,
and i could list a million things
i love to like about you
but it all still comes down to one reason
i can never live without you.

just for that love =)

2008-03-11T11:54:00.002+08:00

hehe went for 2nd fitting of gown ytd at marina sq.
didnt have so many gowns to fit there cause there were lesser gowns.
chose a few that i really like.
but have to restrict myslf to lesser gowns
cause i can only choose 3 of those gowns!!!!!!
my god im gg crazy trying to find out which gown to get!
it's alllllllllllllllllllllll gorgeous!!!!
anyway the next fitting i gona choose my gown.
i tnk it would b quite a headache for me.
arggggh!!!

bday's in 2days time!!!
happy cause means dear wont tnk his marrying a 19 year old wife!!!
sad cause i've gotta write a 2 in front of my age now!!!!!!!! for the next NINE years!!!!!
i realise at times im finding it very hard to b a good wife in e future???
it's not that simple as i thought it would have been.
i've gotta start learning not to spend so much
though mummy lets me spend,
have my time for my family and help him in his work,
everything i do, i MUST tnk
it's for the family.
i've gotta adapt adapt adapt!
it's sweet but a lifetime committment.
i guess sometimes i just wana love to be a little but mre pampered.
but still i know i wana share my life with you.
and over the days n months
im EVEN more certain of it! =)
my love for my dearest andy =)

gowns n gowns n more gowns!

2008-03-06T19:54:00.002+08:00

hey darls!
yeah i know your have been waiting for me to update n upload my gowns
went fitting on wed
fitted like duno how many gowns
all sort.
long trains shorts trains
halter top, tube top, bare back.
ALL YOU CAN THINK OF!!!!
seriously the gowns are EXTEMELY beautiful but sadly i cant take any pics
so if ur wana see ur would have to follow me
if your dun mind staying there for 4-5hrs seeing me change n change!!!!
anyway it's a headache finding my main white gown.
there's tooooooo many to choose from!!!
should i get,
1. what kind white??? (i still love ivory or champane)
2. with a train behind or not?? (with train IS more elegant)
3. halter or tube (dearest like halter thought, more elegant)
4. types of design
5. lacy back at the back showing my bacK
and i know i would go endlesss
so if you pretty girls see any stunning gowns do let me know ok??
must be asap!!!!
so i would confirm my other gowns yet.
oooo plus hairstyles and everything!!!!
GOSH IT'S A HEADACHE!!!
but i just love the dresses soooooooo extremely alot!
i would have a big time choosing now!!!!
im excited for my next fitting!!!

i knew i was never wrong about you when our eyes first met,
i just knew it so then. =)

im B.O.R.E.D!

2008-03-02T15:46:00.003+08:00

yeah im seriously happy that exams is OVER!!!!
DAMN i didnt really study that hard for it but i did know how to do.
so i PRAYYYYY hard i pass and
I CAN CARRY OUT MY PLANS FOR WEDDING!!!
first fown fitting is gona be on wed
excited to try ALL the gowns there!
i realise i gotta do SOOOOOOOOOOOO many things!
like ermmmm book the hotel
when cant cfm the people coming!!!
book the solomiser.
argggh im going crazy doing all!!!!
whr shld i start doing from?????
lol any hope it's gona be a joy for me =)
anw im B.O.R.E.D now!
at dearest hse for his family gathering
and he LEFT ME ALONE WHILE HE PLAY GAME!!!
argggh!
and so im gona find what should i do....
with much loves and huggies!!!!

im shouting out!

2008-02-22T22:04:00.002+08:00

happy happy!
IM SHOUTING OUT
I PASSED MY DRIVING TODAY!
officially i can DRIVE!
and seriously i was damn lucky to pass man!
and e only girl too!
hahahha!

samantha is busy preparing for her marriage too =)
SOOOOOO much preparations to do now!!!!
but im happy and excited!
cant wait for the moment n enjoying every moment of it! =)
glees and smiles
i love you my darling dear....hugs

my sweetest love

2008-02-16T11:22:00.008+08:00

they were bored in class!

very yummy steak at outback steakhouse

and the sweetest thing of mine

stupid blogger deleted my previous post!!!
and i cant remember what exactly i was suppose to blog.
so im gona take it as my 1st blog frm vday onwards.
let's see,
dearest wanted to surprise me with his flowers and card,
BUT HE DIDNT TELL ME!
n made me real sad!!!
was delighted when i saw him popping out in front of my room door.
bought me 6 stalks of roses and a very beautiful card.
5meant the 5mths we've been tog and
one for his love for me...
hehe! loves!
went to have steak day b4 vday
yumms!
sch's boring esp when it's revision classes now!
not in sch again now.
went to his uncle's place on sat n sun.
dear played mahjong as usual n i was bored to death!
ytd at his uncle's plc i BANGED my back n e DAMN cupboard!!!!
man it HURT LIKE HELL!
dearest heart LITERALLY sank!
hahaha worried darling but im ok!
just pain bleed abit n bruise.
other then that i was just screaming in PAIN!
talked to dearest ytd at e gathering about our future.
told him about what it would be like if we planned things according to what he thought so
alot of time wasted.
so we shall work out a schedule soon!
=) n seriously im happy.
excited and anxious at e same time.
my sis in law is pregnant again so yupps it's another happiness in e family
mummy was saying there's gona be double happiness.....

his exceptional and i cant wait for the rest of my life to share with him =)
for the wonderful months we have shared together,
i wana do it over and over and over again...
just with you my dearest andy. =)

that life line =)

2008-02-10T21:16:00.000+08:00

that's how im gona spend e time with you
silly pictures we always take
filled with smiles and joy.
and i would not see e day where you are not by my side. =)

happy CNY!

2008-02-08T13:57:00.000+08:00

alright shall update abit since e eve of CNY
went to e flower market with dearest and his friends.
went to so many places and managed to buy 2 pots of very beautiful flowers
which i like and chose of coz!
hehehe proud me!
aint the flowers pretty???!

so yeah bought the flowers for his hse,
tue assignment was due,
went sch to hand in assignment,
meet my darling di so that i can go do my nails,
wanted to buy a pair of jeans but didnt,
dun have e one i like,
waited for like 2hrs to do my nails!!!!
did a really nice design,
love is lots!
first time doing smth that i like alot alot.
ooo i love my nails so!!!!

and then it was first day of CNY!
skipping the reunion dinner part which i ate until so damn full!
didnt do visiting,
cousins came with their kids but i was sleeping!!!
hehehe!
mummy collected e ang pao's for me,
mummy n bros' gave me too.
evening dearest picked me up,
went over his relative's place,
woahhhhh wished so many ppl until i duno who i didnt!!!!
hahahahs really warm welcome from them,
ate steamboat again,
different kinds but it's wooooo nice!
ooo did i forget to mention my n darling was cam-whoring at my place a while.
hehehe silly him with his 10shots of silly photos!!!!
damn funny him!
love e way his whole family welcome me,
making me part of their family,
just love it so. =)
the reason that im loving! <3

i never knew y you loved me
because i also didnt know y i loved you so.
with each small happenings in our life,
i knew even mre so that i wana share this life with you
and it's only with you.
baby it's just you,
you my love.

i fell so deeply...

2008-02-04T11:39:00.000+08:00

shoppings beens soooo fun for me.
so when u got nth to do
retail therapy helps e most
esp with ur mummy. =)
dearest bday's coming soon.
2nd day of CNY in fact.
heheh went out to get him a nice pressie
though i bought him a mont blanc christmas pressie
(it was meant to b for him bday n vday too!)
too ex darling girl of his cant afford!
lol anw still decided to get him another pressie
got him a ralph lauren polo which i know he loves,
and hugo boss polo too. =)
(oooo e guys in hugo was DAMN good-looking! full of confidence too!)
anw i was talking about e guys non stop to him.!!!!
hehehe spend quite a bomb on those but it's alright.
his my love =)
tmr's biz finance due!
still half way there,
gona do today, hand in tmr
and and and
im gona go for manicure =)
just for CNY!
designs i should do????? suggestions???
(tell me before tmr starts =) )

my dear cedric is 5yrs old now,
had a big party for him,
however it was not a very nice moment for me n dearest then,
it was a hard time thinking it thru,
he had d n d,
thru that 23mins talk,
words of unhappiness was exchanged,
i took things real cool,
it's just to make him happy that matters,
still felt a sense of unfairness that his getting despite all the things his doing,
really thought he was just gona move off from this whole thing,
just that instant,
i knew i was losing him,
but i was deemed to let it go if it was suppose to be.
talks assurance, truth,
everything was alright,
but at night when i thought i was really ok and happy then this spark striked up!
am i really able to get over my own feelings of it all?
thats when i realise,
i started to like him so much,
to loving him as days passed,
that im willing to do ANYTHING to make him happy.
but was i really able to understand we both worked differently,
though he does love me,
and scold me alot of things at times,
he just love me soo.

thats just how love makes u go on this rollercoaster,
bring u up to see e view and down to give you e thrill
and scare the wits out of u.
and when u want to call it quits it's not willing to let you go
but holds on to you tight.
so much for that thing called, love =)
it's sweet.
im not regretting that i fell in love
with my love, andy =)
hugs and kisses!

it's e 5th month =)

2008-02-01T12:22:00.000+08:00

today's out very happy 5th month,
minus the unhappiness you had with me,
and blah blah blah.
anw it's assignment due tmr so it's best
TO DO IT!!!
arrrgh damn OTQM!
duno wat e hell am i suppose to do.
anw im gona complete it by 5
and go shopping!
hehehehs
mummy's always my besties best companion!
BOOS i aint gona shop coz im not yet done with it!!!
anw there's a new member in dearest family.
his sis in law just gave birth to a cute baby boy. =)
gona see it later.
siggghs!
otqm is EXTREMELY hard!

when i looked back to 1st sept 07,
only did i then realise how time flew past us just like that
it's been a while since i loved someone
because i knew when u love
u wished u hadn't loved.
but it's alright,
i would hold you till the end of time,
but mayb with just a bit more strength,
forgiveness,
trust & mayb
insanity over you
i know i can pull it through. hugs =)

i'm loving him more...

2008-01-29T20:44:00.000+08:00

my silly andy neo! loves!

darling diyanah!

can't rmb when i last blogged too.
ahahahahhas!!!
anw went out with diyanah dearie last sat.
missssssssssssssss her soooooooooooo much!!!
went shopping arnd.
just loved her presence whr i can whine n whine about everything!
CANT wait for her to b on break!!!!!
sun was dearest cousin wedding.
was at one degree 15 for e solomization
followed at trader's hotel.
awwww my tears almost rolled when e couples were exchanging vows..
(sniff snifff)
touching moments...
groom was like so blur about what should they do too!!!!
hahahhas i think evryone would b not thinking properly when they are getting married.... LOLS!
woke up at 615AM to doll up!!!!
im not e bride but yeah wanted to look pretty
hehehehehs!
super sleepy aft that.
dearest said something real sweet when he picked me up,
'darling you look stunning today'
hahaha! loves!
ceremony ended at about 11,
went over to trader's hotel but lunch was ONLY AT 130PM!!!!!!
starving starving hungry us....
ate e chips though....hahhaha!
came back, rested,
school's e next day....
was alright, had econs due to switch
his a real good lecturer! (cheers!!)

tues was just moody,
tmr's gona b a sleepy day for me,
helping mummy n classes aft that
ASSIGNMENT'S GONA B DUE!
hate it!
dreadedful!!!!
so it's best now is tooooooo
let's watch tv n do it later.
hahahhas!
shall update again.....
toooooteees..............

MY first post!

2008-01-25T18:37:00.000+08:00

here's then my OWN post
n not some post
posted by MS KAIQIU!!!!!
who anyhow say she rocks!!!!!
hahahhaha!
anyway after so long attempts i FOUND out how 2 to a blogspot.
quite an idiot me but no choice.
i would improve my background themes!
when i want to learn.
booos im bored now n i suddely do not noe wat to post too!

let's see,
weeks being alright,
not much happenings,
seeing dearest EVERYDAY
(ok im happy about that)
it's coming 5mths n time just flew passed me
LIKE LIGHTNING!
hmmm n hurrrr n booos
just tell me if someone misses me.
im just totally bored now!!!
one thing to be xcited about!
im meeting my darling diyanah tmr!
happy happy!
AGES since i last saw her too!
alright update again...!
tatas

2008-01-18T01:23:00.001+08:00
QIU ROCKS!
WAHAHAHAHA~